Standing there
A perfect being
So close, but so far
The intense presence
Of who he is
Of what he is
Longing to touch,
What is not mine,
A fanasty, he is
Right there,
he was, in grasp
Suddenly, i was mute
Slowly, i disappeared
Into the crowd
He couldn’t notice
I was there
Longing to touch
Him just one time
He was to high
I was too low
Forever I long
For this man
Longing for him
He haunts my dreams
Thinking of him
Draws me near
Pure insanity
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A Feeling
Unexplainable
Uncomparable
Untouchable
Forbidden
Touching my soul
A sacride place
Dark and lonely
Softly and sensual
His Lips, touching mine
The world stops spinning
Dark eyes, beautiful eyes
Staring into mine
Reaching deep into
My broken soul
His hands
Gliding over my body
Softly touching every part
Pure essence, pure bliss
Carressing every fiber
Of my Outer and inner being
Losing myself, in him
Closing my eyes,
Passing away, into
His beautifulness
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His eyes
Dark, breath taking glare
I can’t look away
But I must
i cannot, i feel the heat
It arises in my soul
This feeling ,
it takes me
This connection
Bounds me
It holds me
My focus
Only on him
Him and me
The yearning
To come closer
Touching him
Holding him
Carressing his body
Against my body
Only him,
Only me
In a dream
Together
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Help me
I am a child
Help me
My mind is spinning
Help me
running away
Help me
Fast and faster
Help me
I am small
Help me
I ran away
Help me
Don’t touch me
Help me
Fly away
Help me
Inside my mind
Help me
This storm
Help me
To calm the storm
Help me
The face i see
Help me
It does not disappear
Help me
It stays
Help me
I scream
Help me
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In pieces
Screaming out
In a puddle
My own heart
It will not bleed
Ice cold, ice flows
Through my veins
Tears will not flow
They will not fall
Where is my warmth
My heart is cold
My breath, its icy
Screams haunt me
I cannot bleed
Screams, empty screams
You cannot hear them
You cannot hear them
You will not feel them
Screams inside of me
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Look into those eyes
They’re to die for
Authority rushes out
You need no words
No command
You just know
On your knees
Kneeling down
Take him deep
Release the anger
Release the joy
Release all inside
Fall, fall back
Fall, fall down
Surrender
Your body
Your soul
Your being
Into him
Give away
What hurts
What chains
All remains
Release
Just let go
Float way
To the unknown
High above
The moment
Belongs to us
You are the master
And I am the servant
Take me to a place
Where only we exist
And I will surrender
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The darkness
The drug
The unknown
An addiction
Unexplainable
Connection
Its unbearable
Hes occupying
My mind
My soul
My skin
My blood
The feels
Of something
Its strange
It’s addicting
Reaching down
Grabbing into
The depths
Of something
This craziness
Irrationality
Insanity
I can’t see
Its too dark
Hes there
Taking me
Into the darkness
This instanity
Makes me alive
Truly alive
I seek on
For more
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His green leaves wrap me
Tight in his embrace
A protection, a barrier
A layer, a wall, warm
Home, settle down
Sinking into his roots
My feet slowly sink
The earth below
Intertwine my fibres
Slowly, his heart
Beats next to mine
Forming his roots
All around me, sinking
Relaxing, seeping inside
He takes me, leaves brush
Against my cheeks, feel
His whispers calm my soul
I breath him in, ever root
Strong, tall, his protection
Takes me, embraces me
Gives me peace, soothes
The soul, reassures me,
If I’m lost, I look up
There he is, standing
Great and tall, with many friends
My protecters, my life, my breath
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Upside down
TV on, TV off
Truth, lies
Who can tell
Swirling around
Like a toliet bowl
Backwards, forwards
Upside down, down side up
What do you see?
In your magic ball
Mr Wizard, tell us!
Lost, the light blinds
Darkness hides
Humans, inhuman
Selfish, selfless
who are you?
Judgemental freak
Opinions, conclusions
Offer them all up
Mr Reporter, foretell all
Mindless minds, follow
A trend, a post, a suggestion
Its all mad here
This World, mad
The human, inhuman
A monster borned
From an ugly monster
Jealously, hate
Feeds us, breeds us
Peace needs us
Reaches for us
Shooting it dead
Innerpeace, reaches
The leaves reach out
Roots growing deep
Accept her, reach her
Humans, simply
Inhuman
One blink, good bye
Mr news man,
I need no lies today
Peace reaches me
Follow her, she is calm
Good bye humans,
Inhuman
Flick, your off
Not today,
Never tommorow
Tape up the mouth
Sew it shut, Plug
In the music,
Hear not the gruesome
Now Mr newspaper
Opinions, conclusions?
Two sided from evil
Humans, inhuman
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A short while ago
I was told, you are there
Growing inside of me
I can hardly believe it
Hardly understand it
To grasp it, this tiny life
Inside me, so fragile,
So frail, in my body
Depending on me
I don’t feel you
But, I speak to you
I nurture you
I love you
I worry
I fret
Deep in the night
Dreaming of your blue eyes
My mind wonders too far
Away up into the sky
I just only dream of you
Fear awakes me,
Dreams shake me
All to wonder,
Are you ok?
My Tiny Life
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